Gemini* and Gopher

• Personal/Opinions

  • A little dusting needed, but that's all

    Every time I return, I’m always a little bit surprised to see that the ol’ cardboard box is still in the corner, just as I left it.

    This most recent hiatus may’ve been the longest, I don’t know. How long the hiatus from hiatus...ing will last I likewise don’t know.

    I do think I was able to make more progress this time around, though. I took a break from a lot more, such that it may actually be qualified as a break. I also didn’t fight it this time. Thanks to various aspects of myself (ADHD et al.), I am really driven to have things going on, and being understimulated is just the absolute worst. But this time, I just kind of accepted that I needed to take some time off from as many things as possible.

  • ups and downs

    i don't really know what else to say right now? sorry for neglecting my gemlog again lol. i was going to write a post after coming home from canada (when i visited my now ex-gf) but i was busy and/or tired most of the time since returning. and then things changed and talking about that trip no longer seemed like something i wanted to do or dwell upon. so yeah

    i'm sad. don't think i've said that out loud much, but i am. it sucks things ended up this way. breakups are never fun. i'm also cautiously hopeful for the future - realising i need to take some time to work on myself and examine how things ended up how they did, and my role in that.

    it feels wrong to try to distract myself or chill rn? keep sitting at home after work debating whether or not to play video games, then deciding i don't deserve it.

    oh i did start a new crochet project though - making a rat for my friend's birthday! if i finish in time, i also have a pattern for a worm-on-a-string toy that im gonna crochet and make into a keyring for them. it must suck being friends with me now because you just get fuckin crochet gifts for every event. i may post a crochet update of recent projects on my weblog at some point? although the last project i worked on was a gift for my ex so that also feels.. odd? i do have a LOT of unposted works too though, as the friend i'm making a rat for also has a bunch of crochet gifts from CHRISTMAS they have yet to receive (life's been manic and we've not seen each other since november 2024, sad!)

  • News and Links Digest (publ. 2025-05-19)

    More details discovered regarding plants' water and photosynthesis regulation

  • The readerless stories of Woruv Vtyla

    It's unknown whenever Woruv Vtyla ended up inside the secret and abandoned Soviet-era space station, Bezdna-9, since it became his sort of bunker.

    - May 13th. I woke up to a sudden lack of gravity pulling my body towards the ground. I don't remember which year it was... I just remember waking up here. I've been trying to survive here ever since.

    This is one of the countless notes written by Woruv, none of which made it out of the station.

  • may 18 sex, healing & evolution

    I'm experiencing how sexuality is at the core of my healing and evolution. Not only the physical level but also on the emotional and energy level.

    At the same time I see how focusing only on my physical healing, through food, massage, rest, although essential, doesn't get at the core of what needs to be healed.

    When I experience a deep emotional and archetypal release my whole being feels better. My body works better, the ailments I normally feel seems to diminish.

• Politics and World Events

  • David Goodhart on Starmer and the Somewheres

    David Goodhart has just written a long article in the Times, in the form of a "mirrors for princes" disquisition on the main political divide in the UK. Goodhart is himself principally responsible for developing and popularising the idea of a "Somewheres" vs "Anywheres" polarity in the UK, and the phenomenon seems to obtain in some other polities, so it's of broader relevance than just Britain.

• Technology and Free Software

  • Internet/Gemini

    • Gopher and AI Bots

      Seogrump talks about LLMs and gopher, and asks if the AI bots are scraping gopher sites [0].

      I suppose they could be. But I haven't seen any behavior in my logs that indicates AI scrapers directly making requests to port 70, which I'm thinking means rapid-fire connections from lots of different IPs. I also think it would be difficult for such scrapers to get meaningful data back on gopher, just due to the fact that a lot of servers are on older hardware, or self-hosted, and that the gopher protocol itself is not optimized for performance. I imagine some older gopher servers (or the parent host) would just fall over after a few minutes of request flooding. I'd be curious to hear if other self-hosted gopher server admins have noticed anything like this direct to port 70.