Gemini* and Gopher

• Personal/Opinions

  • Fires

    Day 5 of losing my son started as usual these days, fits of crying.

    I always imagined in these circumstances one would wake up initially in the past, and they'd slowly realize what had transpired. But that's not how it happens. I open my eyes, and instantly, I remember everything. So, I already start the day with deep pain.

    My support network is strong, but what has really helped is nature, family, some weed, and meditation. Last night I went in nature, with two of our family, and I smoked some weed for the first time after the incident and meditated in the dark, to get in touch with the energies.

  • Status updates

    It's not that I don't share stuff about my life and what is happening in it on the internet (else I wouldn't have this blog). But I've grown to dislike short-form content, and the immediacy of status updates puts me off. Who needs to know what I'm doing right now? What's the point of posting one-sentence updates of every thought that enters my head? Who even cares about any of that???? This has baffled me since the days of IM programs that had a space for you to enter a status into.

  • 2024 after 3 races 🏎🏁

    Since pre-season testing, everyone has thought that Verstappen will win the championship again. Yawn. So far he's only failed to win the race where his brakes failed.

  • This sucks

    So I’m losing my job in about a week.

    It’s a seasonal position that I always knew would only last six months, so the company can avoid providing any benefits. But the time flew by. It’s rare that I can keep a job. I have a shitty temper, poor stamina, no real skills… I only lasted as long as I did with Lyft because there was basically no oversight.

• Canada

  • Thoughts on the carbon tax

    In Canada, we have a tax on carbon. I'd be lying if I knew exactly how it works; most of my understanding of it comes from propaganda. A few days ago, I was talking with an old friend about how I pivoted into environmental science, and they asked me what I thought about it.

    Having read a little more into it, however, I do think my intuition is mostly correct: the carbon tax is a tax you pay on goods that accounts for their CO2 emissions. Putting a carbon tax on goods means that, in a sense, the price we pay for goods "accounts" for the effect their production has on the atmosphere's CO2 content.