Gemini* and Gopher

• Personal/Opinions

  • Death Notes: 2024-11-20

    Today is the day of my cousin's funeral. At the time of writing, it should be just about over. No online option, which was a little disappointing given the potential it might've happened, but realistically, not surprising.

  • 🔤SpellBinding: BDUISTH Wordo: LOXES

  • Extemporeality 3

    After some unknowable time passed all of the weight of my symptoms were enough to placate me, and I had to just sit on (and definitely not 'in') the leather rocker. My mind was split. I was at this point at the mercy of my environment. I could not form a thought that was longer than a few words. Earlier I wrote that I was losing continuity, and by this point it was gone. I've been trying to find a way to describe this sensation for the months since this experience but even now as I write this I feel like every effort I'll make to ascribe this state to logic or the written word will fall woefully short. Bear with me, and keep an open mind with the imagination dials set to 11, and maybe you'll begin to see things from my perspective.

    Time, inner monologue, speech, all of this was experienced as short, incongruous snapshots. The intervals of time may have realistically been spans of five or fifteen seconds, but they may as well have been hours, or years. Constable would mention to me that he was planning on going outside in a bit to collect some lake water to view it under a portable microscope he brought, and immediately any memory of this conversation was memory-holed. Oh, I can recall him telling me this, wasn't that a couple of years ago? I feel like I'm conjuring an old memory of childhood and not something that happened immediately in the past.

  • Wednesday

    I've never known what to make of this need to write.

    Interestingly (self-referentiality-ly?), introspection along such lines seems good reason to write.

    Pursuing "Why?" seems futile. Anything/all reason given can be seen another way, abandoned, augmented. Thoughts and shifting (first typed: "sifting") sand, right?

    I think it's that I so enjoy chancing upon writing belying a someone breaking through the darkness of "same old", of the silent agreement that things be certain ways lest anyone (usually the lesser of the beings) become offended. A singular beam formerly under a bushel. Lost, but now found.

• Politics and World Events

  • Politics

    I hate politics and everything that comes along with it. As someone who likes to discuss, organize and make decisions I used to think I'd be a great politian. But reality shows me that only the loudest people with money get into it through bribes and pushed agendas from 3rd parties. What happened in the US election is happening here in Europe too. Extreme Right parties are getting more and more votes... The scary thing is that people do not seem to know what voting for these parties implies.

• Films

  • On being a director

    This is a first draft of a piece on being a director. I wanted to put down my thoughts quickly for the moment, to be worked on at a further date.

    As I throw my last cigarette in the hash tray, half smoked, fairly drunk, I go back home after the celebration of the finale. I'm looking forward to stop smoking for a while, a habit I take and leave during a theatre season.

    The last few days, I saw how the actors started to see me under a different light. The trust in the process as finally paid off. When you don't know where you are going, it's hard to trust the pilot until you reach your destination.

• Technology and Free Software

  • Leveling up the toolkit

    A story of exploration, optimization, and how awesome open-source tooling can be.

    I'm somewhat stuck using a mac because of multiple critical tools that I use on it. I've always been a DIYer with my tools though, which is something FOSS OS's like Linux or *BSD enable much more. But I've found two tools that I enjoy a great deal: Aerospace (a tiling window manager in the vein of i3) and sketchybar (a status bar like i3bar or polybar). Both of these tools offer fantastic configurability and do an admirable job piercing the walled-garden that is the Mac OS.

    Because a desktop status bar generally displays the list of workspaces and indicates which one is active, there's a good deal of integration needed between the two. I got started with the suggestion in the Aerospace wiki.

  • Internet/Gemini

    • Rare manuals and cars

      Thanks to the beautiful people on BBS, I was able to find a direction for my capsule.

      I redid the front page as well, to make sure my new content is more available.

    • No small journal for me

      I won't be carrying a separate, journal of separate small entries on this capsule. All gemlog* entries, large and small will go as a regular entry. The thing is that I don't want to keep yet another journal that I, most likely, end up abandoning. Besides, flounder is fast and easy enough so that keeping a separate journal is an unneeded complication.