Gemini* and Gopher

• Personal/Opinions

  • 🔤SpellBinding — CVIOTUD Wordo: SPORT

  • Five good things, July 23

    1. We went to an outdoor performance of King Lear on Thursday night. I think my favorite quote was when Edgar said "Men must endure their going hence even as their coming hither." Sometimes I think about the pains and fears of old age and I thought that was a beautiful way of expressing it.

    When the sun sank below the trees at around 10:30 I realized sandals with bermuda shorts was a bad choice of attire for the evening. My feet were freezing. Still, I enjoyed myself very much in spite of the chill. The actors did a great job.

    2. Friday after dinner we went to a baseball game. We were given some free tickets. I've never been much interested in watching sports of any kind, but the baseball games have been a lot of fun. We've had such beautiful hot, dry weather this summer, it's pleasant to be outside on the long summer evenings when the sun is still blazing in the sky at 8 or 9 o'clock at night.

  • losing my grip

    I almost didn't go to work yesterday, and maybe I shouldn't have as I got in late and was pretty miserable to be around.

    My role change 10 months ago has been a big shift. Less technical now, but so much more challenging in different ways. Its not that I'm *bad* at my job. I've done good work and been recognised for it. The problems are coming from within. I struggle deeply with my confidence and negative self-talk, and I now work across the organisation workshopping and meeting with a myriad of new teams and individuals, and my state-of-mind is not prepared for it. In the last few months my skin and sleep has got worse, I'm balder and greyer. People are saying "you look tired". I am extremely stressed.

  • sex life of a single man

    So what to do with my sex life now that I am single?

    Well, I live in the middle of nowhere, so things like tinder, is just a bit weird. I kind of know most of the other people I see on there. Plus, I am not sure I want to always be in the 'expecting' something. The sexual energy and drive is quite consuming for me and I'd like to focus on other thing than sex.

    So what now?

    Pornography? Nha, I don't really like that. It also feels quite 'draining' like my energy leaves me, without that much pleasur coming out of it.

• Technology and Free Software

  • My ed, wondering

    Sometimes I have the urge to write a small editor, something like the kilo project: so small that it is barely usable. I also imagine it to have a sort of conversational UI – which I guess ed has? – if ed is your grumpiest of companions! – or maybe the M-x commands for emacs – and I guess I‘m looking at Oddµ as a site generator and Markdown file server and I wonder: what sort of editor would I need to maintain this? What sort of minimal SVG editing capabilities would be nice to have?

  • Gridmapper Local

    I was wondering whether I should get back to Gridmapper, but not using Javascript and the web but using Common Lisp. I spent some time on this two years ago. Of course by now I have forgotten everything – like how to build it!

  • Just a couple same 'ole days

    Just a couple same 'ole days

    Yesterday was an early rise, leading to working out a skeleton of Gary Wright's "Dream Weaver" (1975) on the keyboard, which device I hope to leverage more in performances. The goal is to create many such to facilitate people signing up in advance to perform. The device I'm using makes it easy to transpose on the fly to fit other vocal ranges. It'll also free my hands up for more guitar soloing.

    (Yeah, I know: such can likely be purchased. But, well, "if/when you want things done right", right? Plus I'm liking the practice aspect of creating increasing the odds of remembering chords and song structure without the keyboard.)

  • collapseOS

    I have been looking into collapseOS, but instead of going too far with it at present, my attention has been brought to its use of the Forth programming language.

    I have written before about how I seek a kind of holy minimalism when it comes to computing -- I seek it in many things, but I think I've only written about how it applies to computing on my phlog. And when it comes to Forth, I think that sort of thing is my bag, baby.