Gemini* and Gopher

• Personal/Opinions

  • another deep dive into finality and isolated resurgence of my very ego and self from the rot and ash and stiffening of my solace

    ah gosh. where are we now. hmm. i am staying with some rather pleasant individuals, names of lee and tanya. its a long story and i cannot describe in any proper quantifiable sense this overwhelming restlessness which i am currently wearing, against my weakened will. pardon my whining, it is really a lovely day after all.

    its been 1.5 weeks since i left him again. though ive said this many times prior, i say it now and feel it in my bones, and pray that it remains to be true- i am not going to return to him. not this time. i deserve to be loved the way i deserve to be loved. i will not settle any longer for anything less than the same abundance of respect and adoration and emotional involvement. i refuse to be forever kept in a cage-like environment in which i am frequently left alone and only returned to in order to satisfy someone's physical needs. i will no longer be spoken to like i am less than nothing, or spoken to with such disdain that it seems like i am the single cause of every possible shortcoming or frustration that arises.

  • When the free-trade right punished competition

    Yeah, although I’m not even onboard with that part. I get that you wrote “reasonable”, not “fantastic”, and maybe that’s where I’d land too as in “contrary to the rest of this law which is tyrannical, suffocating, makes a mockery of freedom, and furthers corporate trampling of people power, this part at least makes sense, I ‘only’ disagree with it (reasoning that it’s great if public infrastructure primarily benefit public works, and that this paragraph whiffs of the ‘marknadshyror’ debacle and, like it, will lead to furthering the collapse of what we the people built together and have together), whereas the rest of the law is just complete and thorough cruelty without any amount of reason, motivation, or consistency with self-professed free-trade values, just a blatant money grab and a punch in the face of all of us” kind of “reasonable”.

  • Realisation of a dream

    I always had a thing for smalltalk, first squeak and then pharo. Alas by brain is more wired for lisp. Emacs as an operating system lacking a good editor is a well known trope and I've been living in emacs for the most part last decades. But I've always had pharo envy for the extra possibilities afforded by the rich ui experience.

  • Trail running with my basenji

    A couple of years back I got a running harness for my basenji with the intent on taking her for runs and hopefully cement a good habit for the both of us. Things didn't quite work out as expected. She did quite alright for the first run but on the subsequent attempts she would be of quite a different opinion on everything from pace to how many pauses were reasonable, to where we were running and so on. On rainy days I would get her ready and she would seem eager to go only to pull the handbrake on the driveway more often than not ending up with me disappointedly leaving her at home and go for a run by myself.

• Politics and World Events

  • Liberation

    The word liberation means different things to different people.

    For some it means political freedom.

    For others it means money, success, or escape.

    For me, liberation means something much smaller and much more personal.

    It means waking up in the morning without fear.

    It means drinking coffee quietly with my friend in a small rented apartment somewhere, hearing music from an old radio, and knowing that nobody is going to scream at me, inspect me, threaten me, judge me, or remind me that I am mentally ill.

• Technology and Free Software

  • The Nocturnals

    An interesting article made its way across my Bluesky feed recently. On nocturnal introverts, it struck a bit of a nerve, because I'm fairly introverted (maintaining a very small set of friends, loathe to leave the house, etc) and there's a part of me that very much prefers the quiet and calm when the world is asleep. When I was a teenager, I used to have to deliver newspapers at 6 a.m. - and I got up even earlier, usually just after 5, to call BBSs that would be plagued by busy signals later in the day.

  • Counter Link Rot with Snippets in Lagrange

    One of the great features of Lagrange is snippets. Snippets are not just text snippets, which can be pasted from a menu, they also allow to define a shortcut, which triggers some functionality.

  • There I said it, I don't like darkmode

    It is perhaps odd. After all my emacs has been applying the wombat theme for the last decade or so. But apart from my Emacs I don't particularly like white on black. Colleagues all sing the praises of darkmode preferring it but myself I feel disoriented. It's great when every other window is light and your Emacs is dark, you can spot it quickly and return to its warm embrace if by chance you have wandered astray.

  • Pixel art apps on F-Droid, comparison

    Here’s a comparison between the three pixel/​sprite/​tile making apps I could find on F-Droid. I know there’s stuff in that vein on Varvara, but I haven’t figured out a good way to run Varvara apps on Android yet, especially in a way where I could get files in and out. (Definitively still interested in that approach though.) So here’s PxerStudio, Pixel Artist, and PixaPencil.

  • Internet/Gemini

    • Rediscovering Internet Radio

      Really loving my skiff desktop after tracking dirty rectangles made it snappier. I was not expecting such an improvement. When you live day to day making due with software that doesn't work the way you want it's a breath of fresh air to be in the driving seat even if the edges are rough.

• Programming

  • Thoughts on code ownership for small scripts

    It's not likely anyone is going to use that code in major or production projects, so there is no reason I should require attribution or copyleft.

    It would be different if I were writing a software project, like an IRC client, a text editor, or some kind of networking utility, that I expect people to use. Then I'd want some kind of GPL.