Gemini* and Gopher

• Personal/Opinions

  • 🔤SpellBinding — XEIOSTC Wordo: WAFTS

  • Ongoing Learning

    Apologies for the delay since my last post, I've submitted two papers in the past two months and have needed the time to recover.

    I've spent a bit of time the last week re-learning math concepts that I encountered or nearly encountered during undergrad, motivated by a desire to understand machine learning better since I would like to build some fun interfaces that surprise me as the user. This has brought some emotions to the surface.

    Since I doubt anyone reading this knew me in undergrad (there are people reading this, right?), I feel that I need to provide some context. I was a terrible student for most of my undergrad to the point where I probably should have suspended my studies. I was very depressed, on medication that left me completely exhausted, and unknowingly had some kind of neurodivergence (the smart money is on autism and auditory processing disorder) that made it very difficult to get anything out of large lectures. I barely passed many of my classes from intense study n the lead-up to exams, and abandoned a math minor that I really wanted to pursue because I couldn't reliably attend class and couldn't cram in the same way.

  • Bikepacking freebies: Things I got for free while cycling

    All of these are just out of the top of my head, there's so much more that I'm probably leaving out now and this generally happens everytime I do a multi-day cycling tour. I'll try to keep this post updated in the future.

  • Stringless

    “Oh, fluff!” exclaimed the crow as he ran up the hill. “We forgot our stuff at the door!” A few black feathers and a loose document fluttered behind him, having slipped out of the folder tucked under his uninjured wing.

    “Oh well. Run!” said the raccoon, lugging a long, boxy case by the handle with one paw.

    Thwip! An arrow flew towards their backs, coming from the small squad of Marquise soldiers chasing close behind them. The vagabonds had neither the numbers nor the weaponry to defend against the soldiers.

    The raccoon instinctively ducked upon hearing the sound. The arrow whizzed closely over her head right after it grazed the top of her satchel, tearing it open and letting several cans of sardines spill out.

  • Announcing "Stringless", a Root fanfic

    As my first substantial contribution to Geminispace, I'm publishing my fanfiction and fanart project as gemtext! I've been working on it for about two months and it's finally done.

  • Mental health improvement or something

    Over the past year, I've found myself less frequently trapped in this sort of twilight zone. The paranoid possible world is more easily dismissed and I don't tend to go down its rabbit hole.

    The reasons for this improvement (if that's what it is) are not obvious to me, especially considering that I've been on a lower dose of Invega since September of 2024. I don't know really how to explain it. Maybe I'm less insecure about things in general, and the Invega maybe never really had any bearing on my insecurity, as my insecurities might be separate from the thing that Invega treats. Maybe I'm less insecure about my weight issues in particular, due to losing weight on Wegovy. It's also possible that I've just surrounded myself with less shitty people (shrug).

    What I mean by "this sort of twilight zone" is that such paranoid thought processes are not only limited to personal issues like my obesity. They could be about other personal issues or just things about me in general that I feel insecure about.